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My How Are You Diary

Hello and welcome to my diary!


Hello, and welcome to my diary. Today is the 25th of June 2022. My name is Leona McDonagh, I am 16 years old and I am very happy about taking you with me on my journey through life.

For two years, this book accompanied me. Whenever I felt bad, or good, I took it into my hands and wrote an entry. I am a spiritual, highly sensitive girl, who has experienced many extraordinary things in her life. My biggest wish was always to help the people in this world and to support them. And now I have the opportunity to fulfil that wish.

You will be my companions, through my depression, through my emotional torturing pains, through the severe arguments with my parents, just like the challenging time in school, all my fears and much more.

Apart from that, you will be a part of the journey where I find my way back to the light, my positivity, where I can smile again, feel happiness, and build a connection to nature and my wonderful dog, Akela. Where I find my strength and myself. Where I grow and learn to deal with negativity and difficulties in my life.

I hope that I can be a companion in your life. That I can help and support you through my experiences. I hope that you can find your true self through this book, while you are accompanying me as I walk on the path that leads me to my true self.

If you like this book, if it interests you, helps or inspires you, this journey doesn’t have to be over. As nowadays, I make diary-style videos, which you can most likely find on YouTube. And I am writing ‘most likely’ because at this very moment, while I am writing this, my videos aren’t published anywhere. But at some point, the right time will have arrived, where I’ll know exactly what the purpose of the videos is.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart, that you exist and that your life’s-journey has led you to my book. Even though my book isn’t published yet, and no-one has read it so far, you gave me so much strength in my darkest times. Therefore – thank you so, so much!

And now I hope you benefit loads from my experiences and that this leads you to yourself -, to the positivity that we all truly are.

Until then, thank you!
Leona McDonagh!

Chapter 64

Diary Entry 5 May 2021 - There were two positive messages and three negative experiences. The negative ones took...

Chapter 63

Diary Entry 28 April 2021 - We made a step forward. How it came about, wasn’t so pleasant, but we found out more about...

Chapter 62

Diary Entry 19 April 2021 - The first school-free week was wonderful! Mornings I woke up and I was so grateful...

Chapter 61

Diary Entry 7 April 2021 - I am currently sitting in my grandparents living room. We are still in their house. I haven’t written in a...

Chapter 60

Diary Entry 30 March 2021 - I am sad. I am sitting at the lake, where my home is. I experienced the happiest and saddest times of my...

Chapter 59

Diary Entry 15 March 2021 - The first encounter with someone I didn’t see. Well, I’ll say it this way; I saw him with my third eye...

Chapter 58

Diary Entry 7 March 2021 - I am a highly sensitive person. I feel everything. Double and triple as much as all others. I feel energies...

Chapter 57

Diary Entry 26 February 2021 - Dad and I fought so badly again that he burst into tears and drove away. Mom came home from work for...

Chapter 56

Diary Entry 24 February 2021 - It is very hard for me, and I have to be very strong, to go to my mom and tell her something. I am...

Chapter 55

Diary Entry 19 February 2021 - It is all too much for me. Today is Friday. On Monday school starts again. We had a week off now...

Chapter 54

Diary Entry 14 February 2021 - It built up over days, weeks and months. It is indescribable. No words will be good enough to explain it...

Chapter 53

Diary Entry 7 February 2021 - It started when I had to choose the subjects I wanted to do for my Leaving Certificate. The subjects I...

Chapter 52

Diary Entry 4 February 2021 - Dad wanted me to contact the teacher who is responsible of giving us students all the information we...

Chapter 51

Diary Entry 2 February 2021 - I am currently thinking about how to start this entry, because I don’t want it to be boring. Usually I don’t...

Chapter 50

Diary Entry 31 January 2021 - My goodness I can’t believe I am writing an entry like this again. Every time I think it can’t get worse...

Chapter 49

Diary Entry 30 January 2021 - Since a few days I randomly pull one of my ‘Angel cards’ each day. There is always a positive message on them...

Chapter 48

Diary Entry 24 January 2021 - Today I will continue what I started a few entries ago. Which is transferring various notes I wrote, into my diary...

Chapter 47

Diary Entry 22 January 2021 - Yesterday was the first time I had a panic attack again, after a long time. And since then, everything around...

Chapter 46

Diary Entry 20 January 2021 - I saw a monster in me. The monster which causes all negativity inside of me. But it wasn’t me. I am not that...

Chapter 45

Diary Entry 11 January 2021 - Today was the first day of online-schooling. Due to covid, everything is closed down again, including...

Chapter 44

Diary Entry 1 January 2021 - This is a scene I imagined when we were supposed to have a Zoom call with our family in Germany (but I had...

Chapter 43

Diary Entry 30 December 2020 - Today I will make a ‘normal’ diary entry and won’t continue what I started in my last one, I will continue...

Chapter 42

Diary Entry 29 December 2020 - Today I will write a few different entries, which I wrote onto various notes on various days. I will start with...

Chapter 41

Diary Entry 22 December 2020 - Yesterday evening Linus and I texted again after several months. It came to the point where...

Chapter 40

Diary Entry 21 December 2020 - Yesterday I wrote a poem for Christmas, although, it’s originally in German, so the translated version...

Chapter 39

Diary Entry 11 December 2020 - I just don’t know what I should write. Maybe everything I am going through is normal...

Chapter 38

Diary Entry 28 November 2020 - On Monday I was asked by a voice: “Why are you actually in school?” On Tuesday I was...

Chapter 37

Diary Entry 17 November 2020 - I am currently sitting in school, in the principal’s office, and am writing this entry on a simple, plain...

Chapter 36

Diary Entry 13 November 2020 - Today is dad’s birthday. I was actually in an ok mood. I don’t feel so good because of what happened...

Chapter 35

Diary Entry 6 November 2020 - First of all, I want to welcome you and tell you how proud and happy I am about writing this Diary, and being...

Chapter 34

Diary Entry 2 November 2020 - I had another breakdown two days ago. Whenever I hear about something and I think about it a lot, and it...

Chapter 33

Diary Entry 27 October 2020 - Monday (the 19th of October) was a very terrible and painful day for me. At break-time two girls just...

Chapter 32

Diary Entry 15 October 2020 - I think it’s really annoying when a teacher randomly picks a student to answer a question. Do you know...

Chapter 31

Diary Entry 10 October 2020 - On Tuesday I stayed at home, as I had an appointment with ‘Cahms’. This was the last time I was...

Chapter 30

Diary Entry 2 October 2020 - Before I start, I would like to say that I have watched this movie every day so far. It just...

Chapter 29

Diary Entry 30 September 2020 - It hurts so much! I can’t do it anymore! It feels like I’m at the end of the end! It is so hard!...

Chapter 28

Diary Entry 28 September 2020 - All the cells in my body are trembling. I watched a movie yesterday where all my cells felt stressed...

Chapter 27

Diary Entry 20 September 2020 - I have a few different things I want write about. First off, the topic of sex. Since I am in...

Chapter 26

Diary Entry 6 Sep 2020 - It is Sunday. The first week of school is over and the second one starts tomorrow. I was so ready...

Chapter 25

Diary Entry 24 August 2020 - The zoom call with the Psychologist, Daniel, felt good. It was very nice to explain to someone...

Chapter 24

Diary Entry 17 August 2020 - I am so confused. I feel like I know nothing. Today I had a breakdown. It’s all so hard and so horrible...

Chapter 23

Diary Entry 13 August 2020 - A few days ago, I had a close encounter with my soul. Mom, dad and I talked about school and what changes...

Chapter 22

Diary Entry 23 July 2020 - When we go on holidays, I want to do as much as possible and would preferably spend the entire time...

Chapter 21

Diary Entry 20 July 2020 - My cousin, Cole, and I had a sleepover yesterday. My sister Amy slept in my cousin’s, Melody’s...

Chapter 20

Diary Entry 13 July 2020 - I was actually quite excited for Germany, except that the fear of flying was so big most of my attention...

Chapter 19

Diary Entry 8 July 2020 - Mom is working again today and dad tried to clarify some things for me the entire day. I thought he was calling...

Chapter 18

Diary Entry 6 July 2020 - A lot happened today. At 11:15 we had an appointment with the doctor so she could...

Chapter 17

Diary Entry 4 July 2020 - Today is my birthday. I am 15 years old now. I had a really nice day today! We ate cake at granny and grandad’s...

Chapter 16

Diary Entry 2 July 2020 - I have three choices, either I do home-schooling, I go to school ‘full time’ or I just do the main subjects...

Chapter 15

Diary Entry 26 June 2020 - Do famous people always turn out the way I see them turning out? Do they all turn out that way?...

Chapter 14

Diary Entry 24 June 2020 - What does my future look like? What job will I have? Where will I live? Will I go to college? How many kids...

Chapter 13

Diary Entry 20 June 2020 - I always wished I could do home-schooling. I wished for it, since I went to secondary school. I wished...

Chapter 12

Diary Entry 18 June 2020 - In the past, when I was about nine, ten or eleven, I suddenly felt an uncomfortable feeling...

Chapter 11

Diary Entry 17 June 2020 - We all talked about the house the whole day and already decided on which rooms were going to be what...

Chapter 10

Diary Entry 15 June 2020 - Today something happened to my sister, Amy, where she thought she was going to die, because nothing like...

Chapter 9

Diary Entry 14 June 2020 - The phone call with the landlady went well yesterday. Everyone was so excited, even mom and dad. We didn’t find...

Chapter 8

Diary Entry 12 June 2020 - Today mom was working again. I wanted to make myself a toast with Nutella in the morning, because my usual...

Chapter 7

Same day 10 June 2020 - My youngest sister Alana and I were in the kitchen this morning, with our dog, Akela. We slid closer and closer to her...

Chapter 5 & 6

Diary Entry 9 June 2020 - After more than three years I can finally see my friend again. My – since 4 years – pen pal, Mila and I, have planned to...

Chapter 4

Diary entry 3 June 2020 - Is it bad to have no friends? Am I a bad person when I always reply with ‘no’ to people...

Chapter 3

Diary Entry 31 May 2020 - I came along to the beach on Thursday. It was nice, we listened to music in the car and...

Chapter 2

Diary Entry 27 May 2020 - Do you know when no-one understands you, when everything is shit and you keep getting in trouble because your...

Chapter 1

Today is the 23rd of May 2020. Our summer holidays start in a week. I am not sure if I am happy about that...