Diary Entry 28 November 2020
On Monday I was asked by a voice: “Why are you actually in school?”
On Tuesday I was asked the same: “Why are you actually in school?”
Both times the questions hit me right in my heart. But I didn’t think about it much and I didn’t have a proper answer.
On Thursday it was made clear to me: “You don’t belong here!”
Until that moment I didn’t realise I was looking for this statement. I got an answer, even though I didn’t ask a specific question. But this sentence told me something very important. Even though I can’t change anything about me being in the human world and having to go to school, I understood that I am different, will always be different and will never belong here.
I am currently reading the book ‘Sophie’s World’ and this wonderful book gives me so much inspiration, strength, knowledge and many realizations. Usually I read it during Irish class, as I don’t do Irish and every time I read a bit, I grow a bit. The words in this book are a new part of my life. Due to this book, I got a little closer and more open to my soul again, in a way that I can ask myself questions and give them an answer. Sadly humanity and the human world nowadays is so influenced, that it’s very difficult to have a clear connection to your soul, therefore I will probably not be sent those questions often. But right now it happens to me more often, and I will never give up being in contact with my soul.
Mom and I talked about it in the evening and about a few more things. Later on in life I’d like to have a job, where I stand on a stage and hold presentations and can help others through my experiences. I want to stand on my own two feet, be self-employed, independent and decide for myself. I’d like to talk about how different I am and that being different isn’t something bad.
What would you like to be in the future? What’s your soul’s purpose?
Thank you for reading, until the next time, Leona:)
