Diary Entry 15 March 2021
The first encounter with someone I didn’t see. Well, I’ll say it this way; I saw him with my third eye. Spiritual eye.
Yesterday was Sunday, I watched ‘The Vampire Diaries’ the whole day, because my cousin suggested it to me. She claimed I would love the series, and she was right. I loved it, maybe a little too much. That’s why I was drawn into it so heavily again. As if nothing else existed anymore, just that. My eyes were so unfocused again. Somehow in a way, as if they were in two worlds at once.
Afterwards I didn’t feel so well, a strong energy was around me which wasn’t pleasant. It was an overload. Now I wondered why the same thing happened to me about a year ago, when I read the ‘Twilight’ books, and the feeling (of overload, unfocused eyes and being in a dream state) stayed with me for over seven months. So, – the feeling of not living, somehow not being fully in this world. I think back then it was just all too much. The ‘Twilight’ books triggered it, then the fear came along that I could become gay, the problems with my father, the school, Covid, the indescribable feeling in my body towards other people (the ‘uncomfortable’ feeling)…. It was all way too much and therefore I wasn’t really grounded; I couldn’t be… so many emotions…
That’s what it was like in the evening on the 14th of March. It was an overload. I got a little aggressive after a while when mom said nothing anymore, but instead just listened to me as I cried. I didn’t even want her to say anything, but I wanted her to ask what was going on with me, even though she already did that, and I explained it to her… I didn’t know what I wanted anymore. I wanted something, but nothing. I had no idea what it was.
“Can you please go away for a little while and come back into my room in two minutes and hug me”, I asked mom, as I couldn’t decide what I wanted and didn’t know what was going on with me. “Of course.”
She left and… well, I drank a sip of water. My eyes were closed, as I tried to calm down. I felt something. Someone made contact with me. He contacted me internally. He said something to get my attention. I listened.
The tears continued flowing. I couldn’t believe what I saw. I put my hands in front of my mouth to not be so loud. It felt like a thick rope was pulling me from inside my stomach. Simultaneously, it felt like my stomach was being pushed in. My heart swelled, my body was warming up. Everything happened so fast.
He had my attention right away. “Everything is going to be alright” he telepathically told me. He sat on the ground. Some kind of shadows were around him. Good ghosts. It were four, five including him that I could make out. I saw this image from above, I looked down at them. “Do you trust me?” he asked me. Without having to think, I nodded and mumbled “yeah”.
It was the most creepy and the most beautiful thing at the same time. He did something good, even if I didn’t know what it was. I had to trust him and I did; with all that I had.
Suddenly I got a bad headache. I was dizzy and I felt how something was being pulled out of my body. As if someone had reached into me and removed it. It was heavy, at least it felt heavy and as soon as it was out, my head pounded. My eyes – including the spiritual/third eye – were hurting, as if someone had just pushed my eyes in.
The last thing I heard from him was: “Go to sleep now.” Exactly that was what I intended to do after what had just happened. I couldn’t have stayed awake for much longer. “Okay”, I sobbed.
Sasha released me from something. He communicated with me from India and freed me from something, with my consent. From something that had to be done, from something that wasn’t good, from something that doesn’t burden me anymore now.
In the exact moment in which he said goodbye, mom stepped through the door. I was exhausted and was a little scared. I trusted Sasha to a hundred percent, but this was still something totally new and different to me. Apart from that, I felt how I was spiritually being operated on.
Mom and me hugged straight away. “It’s all ok. It’s all ok.”
“Mom, when you left, something happened”, I cried due to confused emotions.
“What happened?” she whispered.
“Sasha spoke to me.”
“What did he say?” It astonished me how she believed me right away, and at the same time it made me happy.
“He asked if I trusted him and I said ‘yeah’.”
“And do you?”
“Yeah, but mom, something was taken out of my head.”
“Are you scared?”
“A little, but he said I should go to sleep now.”
“Yeah, it’s normal that you should sleep after an operation like this.”
“But will I wake up tomorrow and continue living?”
“Yeah, everything will be normal. You are still needed here, – I still need you. Everything is ok, you can trust Sasha, he will mind you. Sleep now my sweetheart. And if something is wrong, you can text me, I’ll leave my phone on.”
With that she gave me a kiss on the cheek and left my room.
I couldn’t fall asleep for ages. I was so hot. I had a bad headache, especially around my physical eyes and the spiritual eye. I slept very uneasy, and my head was full with similarities of The Vampire Diaries and my recent experience. I didn’t want to open my eyes, in case I became afraid of the shadows in the darkness.
At 1:30am, I was lying awake for a while already. I still had a headache and I was burning hot. I twisted and turned continuously. Then I decided to text mom. I texted her with the hope that she would come downstairs and be with me. She came after a few minutes. She stayed with me for the rest of the uneasy night. I barely slept and I was still hot.
I was able to get ready for the homeschool day today and I even managed to stay awake. Now I am here. Almost 24 hours after my ‘operation’. I still don’t feel fully normal again, but how is one supposed to, after something like this?
For whatever Sasha and the angels did with me, I am so grateful to them. I have never personally met him before, but he has done so much for my family. I don’t know if I will ever find out what it was he freed me of, and what exactly happened… But I will be eternally grateful – for the experience and their work!
I love you! Leona.
