Diary Entry 24 June 2020
What does my future look like? What job will I have? Where will I live? Will I go to college? How many kids will I have? What kind of husband will I have?
I am almost 15 and maybe it’s time to make an approximate plan for the future.
In the past, I always wanted to become a teacher. I wanted to live in Germany, have a small dog, a house in the countryside, a nice husband and four children with a lot of money, so that I could buy everything I wanted.
Nowadays I still want most of it, I’m just not sure if I want to go to college anymore. Somehow I think it’s a waste of time, because you were in school for so many years already and then, again, should waste 3 to 5 years studying. Besides, I don’t exactly know what I want to be anymore. I don’t know if I want to be an interior-designer, teacher, psychologist, influencer or actress.
Teacher would actually be a perfect job, I would earn enough money, would be on holidays at the same time as my children, I could make learning fun for the pupils – the way I always wanted it myself– and could help them psychologically too. In Ireland I would be a perfect German teacher and in Germany, a perfect English teacher. But I don’t know if that will remind me of my school time every morning. I don’t know if I would really enjoy it, or if it would get boring after a period of time. On the other hand, I could present speeches on various problems and could help people.
I simultaneously need to earn money to pay for my apartment, my food and so on, as going to college and taking time to myself. Maybe I’ll study later on or I’ll study straight away, will get a job, earn money, will get myself a good home and will see how it all works out before I have kids.
I don’t want to think about that too much now. I always think it’ll all just fall into place, but you should have an approximate plan. I’ll just trust God, and myself, that everything will be fine. And in relation to the husband part, – I will find the right one and I hope in the near future, because I somehow would like to have a boyfriend.
Thank you for reading, until then!
