Diary Entry 4 July 2020
Today is my birthday. I am 15 years old now. I had a really nice day today! We ate cake at granny and grandad’s and Amy’s best friend was there too.
Yesterday evening my sisters and I played an online game called ‘Escape Room’ with Amy’s best friend. It was really fun and was useful for training your brain. Around 20 minutes to midnight, I told the others I’d rather go to sleep now, because I prefer being congratulated the next morning, instead of when the day leaps to the next.
I said good night to mom, laid down in bed, sang a mantra and prayed, because I do that every evening. I think what I wished for was that I would have a very successful new year and that my family and I could live on for a long time, that Archangel Michael and God would protect us, put their robes around us and make sure that we all stay really, really healthy.
Then the clock struck midnight and I received a text from mom for my birthday. Today mom told me she watched a movie, which finished exactly at midnight and at the end of it – which apparently was very random for the film – fireworks started, and the people went outside and said: “It must be someone’s birthday today.” That’s so suitable and I think it’s a sign.
Today a lot happened to me, which always lead to a sign and I noticed my 15th year of life would be different and better. When I turned 13 and 14, it wasn’t so special to me because I was still seen as a young girl – which I didn’t think was bad, but I just didn’t feel any different than before. I had thoughts about the upcoming year not going to be easy nor different when I turned 14. My 14th year of life was even harder than my 13th and I was always convinced it couldn’t get any harder. This time I think it will be a bit easier, as I work on myself more and have already learnt a lot. There will probably be many things coming my way, but I think I’ll be able to deal with it easier. Apart from that, I felt a little different today. Not better or worse, but more positive and experienced. When you say: “I am fifteen”, then you think it’s quite a bit older (you’re not seen as a kid anymore), you think that you went through quite a bit of life already, and now that I’m fifteen I just feel different. I feel more comfortable, happier, as if something was ticked off, something finished. It is as if another big part of my life is starting, and it feels nice! It feels so good that I even have tears in my eyes right now. I think a lot of good and nice things are going to happen this year and that’s great.
I set an alarm for 8:25am today, so I could get ready before they called me downstairs. I was excited about the day. When I turned fourteen I thought: “I already know what I am getting, I probably won’t get much”, this thought was negative, but not actually meant in a bad or mean way. When I got my presents back then I somehow wanted more, as it was ‘just’ a DVD and a small lamp. Even though mom and dad also gave me a 3 and a half week holiday, alone, in Germany. But somehow I wanted something more tangible. Today, I didn’t mind what I got, I was grateful for it, but I was more happy about starting a new chapter in my life and getting to spend it with my family. I didn’t even think much about what I got.
I got up at 8:25, put on my clothes, make-up and did my hair. Mom got up, hugged me and congratulated me warmly. She said I’m not allowed to go downstairs yet, because they are still decorating everything, but that she would bring me hot chocolate upstairs. During that time, I watched YouTube and got nervous for a second, but then it was fine again. Alana hugged me and congratulated me. She woke up Amy and her best friend, and went downstairs. Mom told me dad would get up in a while and that I should go downstairs with him then. I peacefully drank my hot chocolate and it was delicious.
Dad hugged me and took me downstairs. We went into the kitchen and what I did first was say good morning to Akela and the others. Then I looked at the table, it was decorated nicely. They formed a heart with chocolate covered marshmallows, three cards were lying on the table, chocolate and Taytos also laid there. An ‘L’ shaped balloon was glued to a chair and the presents were spread out across the table.
I got a small shelf, a CD, a belt and 20 euro. It was very nice and friendly, “thank you!” I said from the bottom of my heart. I gave everyone a chocolate covered marshmallow and then we played ‘Escape Room’ again. Afterwards I baked a chocolate-lava cake, – really tasty. For lunch we had my favourite food, – pesto pasta with olives and chilli sauce, really cool.
For the chocolate cake, dad went to buy a baking-form and simultaneously he brought me a rose. I thought it was so nice and was really excited about it. It was a huge rose, probably more than half a metre long. We took a few pictures with it.
At around half two we went to granny and grandads. They hugged me very tightly and we ate the chocolate lava cake as well as the cake that granny made – strawberries with cream, custard and a ready bought cake batter. That was my wish from them. They gave me a card with 50 euro, which I can bring to Germany to spend on something nice.
Opa mentioned after a while and after a few pictures, that he saw a tortoise in the river a few days ago and that it apparently couldn’t get out. We asked ourselves how and why, and it was probably a pet that someone had set free. He thought it might die because it’s not used to being in there. Amy, Alana, me and Amy’s friend Ellie, put on boots and a jacket straight away. We started looking for it at the lake and continued walking along the river. We found a flat spot in the water, where we could stand with wellies, I knew that mine had holes, so I didn’t go in. They looked for it and Akela and Duffy joined them. With no luck, I helped them climb out of the river. We went to a different spot and I was sure that I saw something move, so Alana and Ellie went in again. It was so deep at this spot, they would get wet to their knees. They searched everywhere Amy and I pointed to. Sadly we didn’t find anything and Ellie and Alana were really wet, so we went back to the house.
They changed and Ellie was going to be collected any moment. Alana told Opa if he were to see the tortoise again, he should take it out and mom said if we find it, we can keep it, after going to the vet of course.
When we arrived home, we exercised, had dinner and I was allowed to choose a movie. I picked ‘Ice Age’. A candle accompanied by the huge rose were on top of the fireplace. After a while I looked up, and the shadow of the rose formed the shape of an angel. This moment was so wonderful and meaningful to me. I took a few pictures of it. A few days ago I wished so much for there to be an angel or someone that only I could see and only I could talk to. Because in school I am always alone and I longed for this so much, that I started crying. Such a nice feeling came up in me, where I just knew I had a friend, someone who sees everything that I do and is always with me, protects me and is there for me. Who sits beside me in school, hugs me, who I can talk to, helps me and accept me fully for who I am. Someone who just does everything with me, who stays strong when I cry and need help, or just someone who is by my side and fights with me. Who laughs and has fun with me. I wished for that so much. Sadly I can’t have the angel on the ceiling for those things and I sadly can’t always see/feel him, but I know that I have a protector-angel who is always with me and there for me. Everyone has a protector-angel, even if they can’t see it. I know that I have one and that he is there, always. But I would just love to be able to see him, feel him and speak to him.
When I blew out the candle, I wished for a successful, nice, new year of life and that me and my family can live on for a long time and gather new experiences together. Thank you Archangel Michael and God!
I just googled the spiritual meaning of a tortoise. Tortoises are a symbol for mother earth. They give you knowledge and the harmony of the universe. That is beautiful!
I think positive, nice, good, new things lie ahead of me. I think this year is going to be special and I am excited.
I know I am never alone. My protector-angel is always with me and NEVER leaves my side!
And so shall you also know that you are never alone!
Thank you for reading, until the next time!
