Diary Entry 13 August 2020
A few days ago, I had a close encounter with my soul. Mom, dad and I talked about school and what changes will and can happen, so I feel better about attending. I can’t imagine at all going back to hell or doing home-schooling. If I knew what it would be like doing home-schooling, how I could teach myself, if the books are good enough for me to understand or if I have to put a lot of effort into teaching myself, it would be easier to decide.
Mom suggested I should try going back to school, to see how I changed, how much wiser I got and what the new rules are due to Covid – with 2 meter distance and so on… But I know it’d be really hard for me, because it always feels like I am wearing a really thick robe that wants to protect me, but the negative energy from all the people is so strong that it tears apart my protector robe more and more, and then it feels like I am lying on a cold, hard, concrete floor. During the holidays, this robe gets repaired, but it doesn’t last a long time before it feels like I am not properly alive anymore, and it feels like I know and feel nothing anymore.
I was in despair about what I should do, so mom said I should ask my soul because it already knows the answer. I stared at one spot on the ground. I could see in my third eye (the spiritual eye) how the thoughts moved to the side and as they did, I saw a bright light really high above me, which was connected to my third eye like a ray of sunshine. When I saw the ray and the light, the first word that came to me was: ‘home-schooling’. I felt so at peace in that moment, so free and so comfortable like never before. Nothing negative existed for a short moment, until my thoughts came back and covered the light and therefore let the darkness return. Mom came directly to me and asked if I got an answer. I said “no” at first, because my thoughts totally distracted me, and I didn’t know if I had just made everything up. But mom said: “Yes, something came into your mind right away, I noticed that.” I told her home-schooling was the answer. “Well, then we’ll have to figure out how all of this is meant to work”, she said.
Yesterday evening we had another conversation about various things. School of course was mentioned again. Mom texted the spiritual man, Sasha, from India, this morning on my behalf, asking if he could tell us if it’s important for my soul-learning to go back to school or if home-schooling were better for me. If it is important for my soul to learn more and to gather more experiences there, then I will do it for my soul. But at the same time, my soul wants me to be happy and in school, I can’t be. For that to happen, I would have to work on myself loads and loads before I could ever seriously and truthfully smile in there. But if it’s not important for me to go back, I will choose home-schooling.
I asked my soul before bed yesterday if it could give me a sign of a lion today. If I hear the word ‘lion’ or see a picture of one, then home-schooling is better for me. I haven’t received a sign yet, but it is only 12:08pm. I will see what comes my way, but I’ve got to decide soon, because it’s mid-August already and at the end of this month, the next school year begins.
Hopefully we’ll speak with positive news next time. Thank you so much for reading! Until soon!
